“I am a person.”
I love this scene for many reasons. The main reason is that we get to see Olivia & Fitz as a couple actually being in a relationship. They are communicating which I love. So many times there is a miscommunication between the two that has led to them being apart or being disconnected, that I am actually glad that they are fighting it out. Olivia & Fitz want to be together because if they didn’t, they would not be fighting this hard for their love. We have seen both of them countless times, treat the other badly & walk away from each other but this time is different. We are getting to see the other side of them. Vermont is beautiful & they both deserve it. They deserve the life with each other & their 4 babies & their love but in the current state of things, Vermont is not their reality.
I feel like the theme so far for Olitz in season 3B is going to be them dealing with their dream vs. their reality & trying to keep it all together while still BEING TOGETHER.
A few highlights from there argument for me are:
Fitz: “Well what the hell is he doing here?”
Olivia: “He’s here because there is a pack of reporters covering your primaries downstairs and I can’t be seen alone in a hotel room with you.”
Fitz: “He is here because you want him here.”
Olivia: “You have a wife. You don’t get to be jealous.”
Fitz: “I am not jealous. I’m aware. There’s a fox in my hen house.”
Olivia: “Did you just say hen house?”
Fitz: “It’s a metaphor.”
Olivia: “I am not a hen. And my house is not yours.”
Fitz: “You know what. I don’t want to fight anymore. I don’t trust Jake.”
I feel like in this state of dream vs. reality that they are in that Olivia is constantly trying to distance herself without walking away. They just had a moment, they were together, they were living the dream but now it is time to wake up. It is time to face reality & the world. Time for them to go back to the lives. The lives that they lead that are separate from each other.
For Fitz, it is a little harder. This dream life is the life that he has always wanted. It is the life that he envisioned for them so it is not that easy to just go back to reality & act as if he wasn’t just living his dream.
Also Fitz fears losing Olivia because she has left him before. She is literally the last thing that he has. The one thing that he loves & it seems like the world is conspiring to pull them apart. They are fighting to stay together but I think Fitz feels like Jake is the final straw that just might break the camels back. Jake might be just the thing that is going to tear them apart when they are just getting started, when for the first time, they are both on the same page in trying to get to their love story.
Olivia: “You made him the head of B613, if that’s not trusting him”
Fitz: “Oh, that’s what this is about, you don’t like my choices. What are you battling me for Jake’s soul? Jake is not your father.”
I love the bold part by Fitz. In this moment, for him, I feel like he knows this is one of those situations were Olivia is dealing with an internal battle of being the fixer or the woman in love. We saw it in the season 2 finale when Olivia said that she had to be a Gladiator. For Olivia, it seems as though, she feels like she can’t have it all.
Fitz saying, “What are you battling me for Jake’s soul? Jake is not your father.” is to me, him saying, “You don’t have to save everyone. Stand with me." I feel like Fitz was trying to bring her back to him because he felt like she was losing focus in them. He just wants to know that Olivia is on his side. That no matter what or who, they can stand together.
Fitz: “I don’t trust him with you.” [Olivia chuckles] ”Now he is compromised.”
Olivia: “He is not compromised.”
Fitz: “He is compromised. He now has a reason to be disloyal to me. He wants you. He will fight me for you. He will try to win you.”
Fitz doesn’t trust Jake because he knows deep down that Jake wants Olivia for whatever reason. Jake slept with Olivia behind Fitz’s back & lied to his face about it. Fitz knows that idealistically, their situation is not perfect or one that someone would want to be in. He knows that it is something that Olivia has been battling with since the day she compared them to Thomas Jefferson & Sally Hemings. He knows all of this & his fear that maybe, just maybe love will not be enough. People get tired & reality gets in the way of dreams & he knows that their is always the possibility of Olivia walking out on him again. And more than anything, Fitz fears a life without Olivia.
Fitz: “Would you just shut up and let me talk?” [sighs] “Liv, you did this thing. And I know you did it for me or because Mellie made you think you were doing it for me.”
Olivia: “I DIDN’T DO THIS FOR YOU! I did not do this for you! I did this for me, so I can work on the campaign. So I could walk down the street and not be whispered about. So I could stop being known as the woman who screwed the President. So the Scarlet A on my chest could be invisible. So I’m not a joke. I am a person. I am not a hen, I am not a prize. And I have a business to run. People to support. A life to lead. A desire to wake up and face myself in the mirror everyday. And oh, once I fixed a presidential election and I’d like a chance to right that wrong. Your wife may be many things but on one thing we are united, I cannot honestly win a presidential election, if I am your public whore. This is not about you. My whole life is not about you. I have goals. I have dreams. I did this for me. Jake by my side is for me.”
I love that Olivia is speaking her truth. She is in the moment saying what has been on her mind. She is taking some of herself back. Claiming what is hers. She is not doing this with Jake for Fitz or because Mellie may think that she had a bright idea, Olivia is doing this for her. She is owning her agency as a woman. She knows what she has done & how it is looked at in the public & she knows what she has to do to protect herself.
I love everything that Olivia said in the bold but two things stuck out for me: “So I could walk down the street and not be whispered about…So I’m not a joke.” & “I am a person…A desire to wake up and face myself in the mirror everyday.” These lines gave me all types of Olitz phone call feels from episode 305, when Fitz said, “I..I feel like…ashamed. Like I don’t have the right to make jokes because I am the joke. The guy who can’t keep it in his pants like my father, you know?”
Hold on one second…
These two are so destined to be together & so connected that it hurts. Both Olivia & Fitz are good people, who come from a fucked up place with fathers who have scarred them. They don’t want to be everything that their fathers ever said that they were. They don’t want to be jokes. They don’t want to feel ashamed of themselves or their love. They want to just be open. They want to love. They want to be them but with the weight of the world & the expectations that their lives have placed on them it is hard. They just want to do right & what they feel is expected of them while not losing each other.
Then this happened.
Fitz: “I’m sorry. I don’t think about how hard this is for you.”
Olivia: “No. No, no, no, don’t touch me.”
Olivia: “No! Please, don’t! Don’t make promises. Let’s just…this is where we are. This is the only day.”
He wants to console her but Olivia Pope, the Gladiator fixer has been vulnerable enough. There is no “Someday…” now, there is only today, “this is where we are. This is the only day.” Reality is the only thing that matters now.